Hey! I'm Rianna...
After what feels like a lifetime.. I am finally starting to be me and I can not wait for you to meet her. These past few years have been a whirlwind of chaos, love, rebirth and creation for myself. I wasn't always the person you see before you today. So let's take a walk down memory lane shall we?
To give you some perspective, I'm the eldest of four siblings. I was a bookworm and straight A student growing up, unless you knew me in grade 10/11... there was kind of a dark period there .. literally haha. I've always felt like a loner, never quite fitting in anywhere, which for the most part is still true.. I just have my own little tribe of minions now. I fell pregnant for the first time at 15 - something which only a handful of people in the world know. This pregnancy was my first angel baby (and in my own opinion.. was the first thing that sent me down this beautiful yet hard journey I have been on). Two years later I was pregnant again, yeah I know what your thinking, I wasn't in a great mental state most of my teenage years and I made a lot of mistakes but this turned out to be the best thing to ever happen to me. I was 17, doing grade 12, living out of home and working part time when I found out about Ollie (my eldest son). To cut a long story short, we were on our own. I made the decision to have him and I am SO glad I did. For two years I was a single mum, working full time, living on my own raising my baby boy. He was my entire world. I 100% believe he was meant to come to me, to change me and shape me into the woman and mother I am today.
Just before Ollie turned 2, we met an amazing man who is now my husband. He took us both on and has never left our side. It took quite a long time for me to feel worthy of someone like him and to accept he wasn't like the other people in our lives who had turned their back on us. After a few short months we found out we were expecting... this ended up being my second angel baby. This triggered another dark time in my life.... Eventually Henry came along, we got engaged and a year later there was our third baby boy, Teddy. When Teddy was four months old we finally decided to tie the knot. A few months later and we found out about our baby girl, Evelyn and had a magical home-birth during Covid. Now this may sound like a lovely little ending to a cliche fairytale ... but woven through this story is a lot of hurt and heartbreak. I suffered from postnatal depression, self harm, financial hardship , anxiety, self esteem issues, birth trauma, family breakdowns, the list goes on and on.
The scars and trauma of my past follow me everywhere I go and as much as I try, I don't think they will ever go away. I am on a much better path now and I am slowly learning to love myself and not care what others think . It is a constant battle with my own head, fighting back and forth to take control of my thoughts, feelings and body. I know I am not alone, I know there are many others out there who have or are going through this as well so if I can share my story and help normalise issues like the ones I have endured then I am so glad! Every tiny thing I have experienced in my life, good and bad, has led me to this exact point. To my beautiful family and this amazing business, I couldn't be more grateful. I have found my purpose in life. I know now there is so much more to me than what I have been through and that my mental health does not define my worth. I can do this and this is the first step, opening up and talking about it.
-This past 12 months I have expanded my business in so many ways. From trainings and courses to coaching and hands on experience. I have come so far in such a short amount of time. I have so many ideas and goals for the future and I cant wait to share them with you. From here our I will be doing a alot more blogging and email campaigns. I want to help educate and empower women while I'm on this wild ride! Will you be coming with me??-
Here’s some fun facts about me to finish us off!
- I absolutely hate wearing pants! If I don’t have to leave the house you betcha I’m cruising around in my undies and one of Darcy’s oversized shirts 🙌🏻
- I used to have a coke addiction! Coco cola people, calm your farm 😉
- I pour my heart and soul into my babies and my business and often forget about myself, (I’m working on this) 😘
- Im obsessed with birth and everything to do with the human body/motherhood.
- I hate wearing make up, it’s such a pain to put on.
- I have 3 angel babies I think of every single day!
- My favourite thing to do is have dance party’s and movie nights with my little ones!
- I suffer from depression and anxiety and find it really hard to be social and leave the house sometimes! Both I’m working on the best I can 🥰
- I’m PRO choice, in alllllll things!
- I’m a chocolate fiend and it’s becoming a real issue hahah!
What are some fun facts about you? I’d love to hear! Are you a fellow mum, a fellow tog? What do you love?! Tell me mama ❤️
Thats all for now my loves, stay strong, you've got this
~ My attempt at self portraits without my kids ha! Who doesn’t love a good jump on the bed when no ones home ~